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Just You and Me. the Invincible Two
Blue October-Everlasting Friend
But delay the mourn for words of complicated overcast
Please take the message that you taught me how to live at last
But I said my confidence it gets stronger when you're next to me
But we wave respect goodbye in quest for what we long to be
The All American Rejects-Monalisa (When the World Comes Down)
You can sit beside me when the world comes down,
If it doesn't matter, then just turn around.
We don't need our bags and we can just leave town.
You can sit beside me when the world comes down.
Sammy Hagar-Loud
Well, I live my life at full volume
I live my life cranked to ten
The needle's in the red again
Racoon-Never Alone
You and I we don’t tell each other lies
We don’t dress up in disguise
We don’t hold back on the whys
Guess we’re two of a kind
On our own
I won't walk out, I won't leave you all on your own
I won’t leave you be
No, you’ll never walk alone
Barenaked Ladies-Call and Answer
And if you call, I will answer
And if you fall, I’ll pick you up
And if you cause this disaster
I’ll point you home
Lenka-Don't Let Me Fall
Underneath the moon, underneath the stars
Here's a little heart for you
Up above the world, up above it all
Here's a hand to hold on toMayday Parade-I'll Be the Wings that Keep Your Heart in the Clouds (You Be the Anchor that Keeps My Feet on the Ground)
As hours move to minutes
And minutes take longer to break
I will be desperately awaiting
But my tongue won't fall apart
And we've been sitting here for hours
All alone and in the dark
So let me think of to word it
Is it too soon to say 'perfect'?
The Hush Sound-Honey
Always turning back to youAqualung-Brighter than Sunshine
'til you never let me down
Loving your illusions
Staring at a crooked crown
Jars of Clay-Headphones
I don’t have to hear it, if I don’t want to I can drown this out, pull the curtains down on you
It’s a heavy world, it’s too much for me to care
If I close my eyes, it’s not there
With my headphones on, with my headphones on
With my headphones on, with my headphones on
I never saw it happening, I'd given up and given in
I just couldn't take the hurt again
What a feeling
I didn't have the strength to fight
suddenly you seemed so right
Me and you, what a feeling Jesse Harris-The Secret SunWe were once the only ones
Who knew of the secret sun
Shining down where no one goes
In a place that no one knows
And time won’t move at all
The Afters-Until the World Ends
Until the world won't turn
'Til the planets burn
Until the sun dies
I'll be there
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General Fanmix- With My Eyes Closed
Just one of those songs that you listen with your eyes closed and it's raining outside...
And there's nothing wrong but there is something more
And sometimes you wonder what you love her for
She says you've known her deepest fears
'Cause she showed you a box of stained-glass tears
I'm tongue tied, waiting, hoping and praying, lying beside you, longing to touch you
but this feels like the endAmos Lee-Arms of a Woman
I am at ease in the arms of a woman although now most of my days are spent alone
A thousand miles from the place I was born but when she wakes me She takes me back home Neverending White Lights-I Hope Your Heart Runs Empty Stole a look away from your eyes
Stole a look and finally paid your price
Tethered fresh, trampled thoughts, look for me
Look at this face, everywhere there's new mistakes
And underneath it all, takes its toll, grudgingly But with you in here, everything seems OK
Greg Laswell-And Then You
And how my dreams they spin me round And how my dreams they let me down
And how my thoughts they spin me round
And how my thoughts they let me down
...and then, there's you
Jose Gonzales-Hearbeats
Ten days of perfect tunes
The colours - red and blue.
We had a promise made
We were in love
Eastmountainsouth-So Are You to Me
As the music at the banquet. As the wine before the meal
As the firelight in the night
so are you to me
The Honey Trees-Wake the Earth
Some days her shape in the doorway will speak to me
A bird’s wing on the window
Sometimes I’ll hear when she’s sleeping
Her fever dream--a language on her face
I hear sounds of lovers, barrel organs, mothers
I would like to take you down there
Just to make you mine in a merry-go-round
I will never know 'cause you will never showWhen I see you smile first thing in the morning
It raises curtains on your lazy eyes
Could it be that you and I have the greatest love to ever be?
It's not for anybody else to know...
Maxwell-Whenever Wherever Whatever
Lead me on if you must, take my heart and my love
Take of me all that you want
And if there's a thing that you need
I'd give you the breath that I breathe, if ever you yearn for the love in me
Whenever, wherever, whatever Jason Wade-You Belong to Me
Just remember till you're home again... ...you belong to me
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Live Young, Die Fast by Alkaline Trio
"The uneasy life, an untimely death/This doesn't work at all for me so save your breath/You took your time, stashed it away
Deep down inside of a cardboard box marked "rainy day"/So live young, die fast/No one will last/So sit back and relax, enjoy the crash/You fade into black and you're gone/Live young, die fast"
Scene:
Jace glanced at her. His eyes were glowing with manic excitement. "Get downstairs! Get out of the—"
Another blow came, and this time the hinges gave way and the door flew outward. It would have knocked Jace over if he hadn't moved so fast that Clary barely saw it; suddenly he was on the top stair, the blade burning in his hand like a fallen star. She saw Jace look at her and shout something, but she couldn't hear him over the roar of the gigantic creature that burst from the shattered door, making straight for him. She flattened herself against the wall as it passed in a wave of heat and stink— and then its axe was flying, whipping through the air, slicing toward Jace's head. He ducked, and it thunked heavily into the banister, biting deep.
Jace laughed.
City of Bones, chapter 6; Forsaken
"Until the last resilient hope/Is frozen deep inside my bones/And this broken fate has claimed me/And my memories for its own.
Your name is pounding through my veins/Can't you hear how it is sung?And I can taste you in my mouth/Before the words escape my lungs/And I'll whisper only once... There is a secret that we keep/I won't sleep if you won't sleep/Because tonight may be the last chance we'll be given/We are compelled to do what we must do/We are compelled to do what we have been forbidden."
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Jace sucked a breath in, and she realized he had never expected her to say what she'd just said, not in a million years. The look on his face said as much.
She scrambled to regain her composure. "Jace, I'm sorry, I didn't mean—"
"No. You're not sorry. Don't be sorry." He moved toward her, almost tripping over his feet—Jace, who never stumbled, never tripped over anything, never made an ungraceful move. His hands came up to cup her face; she felt the warmth of his fingertips, millimeters from her skin; knew she ought to pull away, but stood frozen, staring up at him. "You don't understand," he said. His voice shook. "I've never felt this way about anyone. I didn't think I could. I thought—the way I grew up—my father—"
"To love is to destroy," she said numbly. "I remember."
"I thought that part of my heart was broken," he said, and there was a look on his face as he spoke as if he were surprised to hear himself saying these words, saying my heart. "Forever. But you—"
"Jace. Don't." She reached up and covered his hand with hers, folding his fingers into her own. "It's pointless."
"That's not true." There was desperation in his voice. "If we both feel the same way—"
"It doesn't matter what we feel. There's nothing we can do." She heard her voice as if a stranger were speaking: remote, miserable. "Where would we go to be together? How could we live?"
"We could keep it a secret."
City of Ashes, chapter 9; And Death Shall Have No Dominion
Winter by Joshua Radin
"I should know who I am by now/I walk/The record stands somehow/Thinking of winter/Your name is the splinter inside me"
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She was clutching her sketchpad, her bright hair escaping out of its braids. He leaned against the door frame, ignoring the kick of adrenaline the sight of her produced. He wondered why, not for the first time. Isabelle used her beauty like she used her whip, but Clary didn't know she was beautiful at all. Maybe that was why.
He could think of only one reason for her to be there, though it made no sense after what he'd said to her. Words were weapons, his father had taught him that, and he'd wanted to hurt Clary more than he'd ever wanted to hurt any girl. In fact, he wasn't sure he had ever wanted to hurt a girl before. Usually he just wanted them, and then wanted them to leave him alone.
City of Bones, chapter 18; The Mortal Cup
Fire by Augustana
"Fire, burning me up/Desire, taking me so much higher/And leaving me whole"
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She could feel the dank heaviness of her clothes, cold and itchy against her skin, and the cloying sweet air of the cave, colder yet, and the weight of Jace's hands on her shoulders, the only things that were warm. And then he kissed her.
City of Ashes, Part Two; The Gates of Hell, chapter 8; The Seelie Court
Over and Over by Three Days Grace
"I feel it everyday it's all the same/It brings me down but I'm the one to blame/I've tried everything to get away/So here I go again, Chasing you down again/Why do I do this?/Over and over/Over and over I fall for you/Over and over/Over and over I try not to"
"I wish I could hate you," he said. His voice was light, his mouth curved in an unconcerned half smile, his eyes sick with misery. "I want to hate you. I try to hate you. It would be so much easier if I did hate you. Sometimes I think I do hate you and then I see you and I—"
Her hands had grown numb with their grip on the blanket. "And you what?"
"What do you think?"
Hurricane by The Hush Sound
"You're the finest thing that I've done/The hurricane I'll never outrun/I could wait around for the dust to still/But I don't believe that it ever will"
Scene;
She looked at him silently for a moment. He needed a haircut. His hair curled the way vines did when they got too long, in looping tendrils, the color of white gold in the moonlight. The scars on his face and throat looked like they had been etched there with metallic ink. He was beautiful, she thought miserably, beautiful and there was nothing there in him, not an expression, not a slant of cheekbone or shape of jaw or curve of lips that bespoke any family resemblance to herself or her mother at all. He didn't even really look like Valentine.
"What?" he said. "Why are you looking at me like that?"
She wanted to throw herself into his arms and sob at the exact same time that she wanted to pound on him with her fists. Instead, she said, "If it weren't for what happened in the faerie court, Simon would still be alive."
He reached down and savagely yanked a hunk of grass out of the ground. Dirt still clung to the roots. He tossed it aside. "We were forced to do what we did. It's not as if we did it for fun, or to hurt him. Besides," he said, with the ghost of a smile, "you're my sister."
"Don't say it like that—"
"What, 'sister'?" He shook his head. "When I was a little kid, I realized that if you say any word over and over fast enough, it loses all its meaning. I'd lie awake saying the words over and over to myself—'sugar,' 'mirror,' 'whisper,' 'dark.' 'Sister,' " he said, softly. "You're my sister."
"It doesn't matter how many times you say it. It'll still be true."
"And it doesn't matter what you won't let me say, that'll still be true too."
City of Ashes, Chapter 10; A Fine and Private Place
No One Else by Natalie Walker
"Hey love I am at the point of no restraint/Let's just make a move and feel the earth quake/It's just you and me and no one else/It's just you and me you and me"
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His gaze was fixed on the green shrub they'd been sitting beside, with its dozens of shiny closed buds. She started to ask him what she was supposed to be looking at, but he held up a hand to forestall her. His eyes were shining. "Wait," he said.
The leaves on the shrub hung still and motionless. Suddenly one of the tightly closed buds began to quiver and tremble. It swelled to twice its size and burst open. It was like watching a speeded-up film of a flower blooming: the delicate green sepals opening outward, releasing the clustered petals inside. They were dusted with pale gold pollen as light as talcum.
"Oh!" said Clary, and looked up to find Jace watching her. "Do they bloom every night?"
"Only at midnight," he said. "Happy birthday, Clarissa Fray."
She was oddly touched. "Thank you."
"I have something for you," he said. He dug into his pocket and brought out something, which he pressed into her hand. It was a gray stone, slightly uneven, worn to smoothness in spots.
"Huh," said Clary, turning it over in her fingers. "You know, when most girls say they want a big rock, they don't mean, you know, literally a big rock."
"Very amusing, my sarcastic friend. It's not a rock, precisely. All Shadowhunters have a witchlight rune-stone."
"Oh." She looked at it with renewed interest, closing her fingers around it as she'd seen Jace do in the cellar. She wasn't sure, but she thought she could see a glint of light peeking out through her fingers.
"It will bring you light," said Jace, "even among the darkest shadows of this world and others."
City of Bones, chapter 17; The Midnight Flower
Marvelous Things by Eisley
"I followed a rabbit through rows of mermaid entwined Shrubbery/Oh what marvelous things but, they are, they are, they are
giving me the creeps"
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She could see why they were called the Fair Folk, for they were fair indeed with their pale lovely faces, their wings of lilac and gold and blue—how could she have believed Jace that they meant to harm her? The music that had jarred her ears at first now sounded only sweet. She felt the urge to toss her own hair and to move her own feet in the dance. The music told her that if she did that, she too would be so light that her feet would barely touch the earth. She took a step forward—
And was jerked back by a hand on her arm. Jace was glaring at her, his golden eyes bright as a cat's. "If you dance with them," he said in a low voice, "you'll dance until you die."
Clary blinked at him. She felt as if she'd been pulled out of a dream, groggy and half-awake. Her voice slurred when she spoke. "Whaaat?"
Jace made an impatient noise. He had his stele in his hand; she hadn't seen him take it out. He gripped her wrist and inscribed a quick, stinging Mark onto the skin of her inner arm. "Now look."
She looked again—and froze. The faces that had seemed so lovely to her were still lovely, yet behind them lurked something vulpine, almost feral. The girl with the pink and blue wings beckoned, and Clary saw that her fingers were made of twigs, budded with closed leaves. Her eyes were entirely black, without iris or pupil. The boy dancing next to her had poison green skin and curling horns twisting from his temples. When he turned in the dance, his coat fell open and Clary saw that beneath it, his chest was an empty rib cage. Ribbons were woven through his bare rib bones, possibly to make him look more festive. Clary's stomach lurched.
City of Ashes, Part Two; The Gates of Hell, chapter 8; The Seelie Court
The Haunting by Anberlin
"Can't get your memory, off of my mind, my mind/Just want your heartbeat, on top of mine, of mine/There's something dancing, here in the shadows/And I wish it were us/You haunt me baby, you haunt me here tonight/You haunt me baby, you haunt me here tonight/Tonight/Tonight"
"...We Shadowhunters live by a code, and that code isn't flexible. Honor, fault, penance, those are real to us, and they have nothing to do with religion and everything to do with who we are. This is who I am, Clary," he said desperately. "I am one of the Clave. It's in my blood and bones. So tell me, if you're so sure this wasn't my fault, why is it that the first thought in my mind when I saw Abbadon wasn't for my fellow warriors but for you?" His other hand came up; he was holding her face, prisoned between his palms. "I know—I knew—Alec wasn't acting like himself. I knew something was wrong. But all I could think about was you…"
He bent his head forward, so their foreheads touched. She could feel his breath stir her eyelashes. She closed her eyes, letting the nearness of him wash over her like a tide. "If he dies, it will be like I killed him," he said. "I let my father die, and now I've killed the only brother I ever had."
"That's not true," she whispered.
"Yes, it is." They were close enough to kiss. And still he held her tightly, as if nothing could reassure him that she was real. "Clary," he said. "What's happening to me?"
City of Bones, chapter 19; Abbadon
I'd Come for You by Nickelback
“As long as there's still life in me/No matter what, remember you know/I'll always come for you/I'd crawl across this world for you/Do anything you want me to/No matter what, remember you know /I'll always come for you/You know I'll always come for you”
From the other side of the bars came a noise. A sort of muffled gasp or whisper; she wasn't sure which, but she recognized the source. Jace. She slashed at the cell door with the tip of her stele, trying to hold the rune for Open in her mind even as it appeared, black and jagged against the hard metal. The electrum sizzled where the stele touched it. Open, she willed the door, open, open, OPEN!
A noise like ripping cloth tore through the room. Clary heard Isabelle cry out as the door blew off its hinges entirely, crashing into the cell like a drawbridge falling. Clary could hear other noises, metal coming uncoupled from metal, a loud rattle like a handful of tossed pebbles. She ducked into the cell, the fallen door wobbling under her feet.
Witchlight filled the small room, lighting it as bright as day. She barely noticed the rows of manacles—all of different metals: gold, silver, steel, and iron—as they came undone from the bolts in the walls and clattered to the stone floor. Her eyes were on the slumped figure in the corner; she could see the bright hair, the hand outstretched, the loose manacle lying a little distance away. His wrist was bare and bloody, the skin braceleted with ugly bruises.
She went down on her knees, setting her stele aside, and gently turned him over. It was Jace. There was another bruise on his cheek, and his face was very white, but she could see the darting movement under his eyelids. A vein pulsed at his throat. He was alive.
Relief went through her like a hot wave, undoing the tight cords of tension that had held her together this long. The witchlight fell to the floor beside her, where it continued to blaze. She stroked Jace's hair back from his forehead with a tenderness that felt foreign to her—she'd never had any brothers or sisters, not even a cousin. She'd never had occasion to bind up wounds or kiss scraped knees or take care of anyone, really.
But it was all right to feel tenderness toward Jace like this, she thought, unwilling to draw her hand back even as Jace's eyelids twitched and he groaned. He was her brother; why shouldn't she care what happened to him?
His eyes opened. The pupils were huge, dilated. Maybe he'd banged his head? His eyes fixed on her with a look of dazed bemusement. "Clary," he said. "What are you doing here?"
"I came to find you," she said, because it was the truth.
City of Ashes, chapter 6; City of Ashes
"Do you live, do you die, do you bleed/For the fantasy/In your mind, through your eyes, do you see/It’s the fantasy/Maybe tonight we can forget about it all/It could be just like heaven/I am a machine/No longer living, just a shell of what I dream/Do you live, do you die, do you bleed/For the fantasy/In your mind, through your eyes, do you see/It’s the fantasy/Say it, say it, say that you believe/Say it, say it to me"
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She spun and kicked in the black water. Terror gripped her, terror of the blind darkness and of the depths of the river, the millions of tons of water all around her, pressing in on her, choking out the air in her lungs. She couldn't tell which way was up or which direction to swim. She could no longer hold her breath. She sucked in a lungful of filthy water, her chest bursting with the pain, stars exploding behind her eyes. In her ears the sound of rushing water was replaced by a high, sweet, impossible singing. I'm dying, she thought in wonder. A pair of pale hands reached out of the black water and drew her close. Long hair drifted around her. Mom, Clary thought, but before she could clearly see her mother's face, the darkness closed her eyes.
City of Ashes; chapter 16: A Stone of the Heart
Not so Tough, Found Out by Copeland
"Not so fast/Come back, come back/Steal away a smile, a smile/Love right now/Lay down, lay down/Not so tough/Found out, found out/Not so tough/Found out, found out/Feels so warm/Some fire, some fire/Not so strong/Lost out, lost out/Twice as sweet/Come ‘round, come ‘round"
I almost died back there on the ship, you know."
He let her hand go, but he was staring at her, almost as if he meant to memorize her face. "I know," he said. "Every time you almost die, I almost die myself."
City of Ashes, Epilogue
"(How her heart behaves)The rain rain making me cry (How her heart behaves)Then the wind comes/Fanning my yellow eye(How her heart behaves)The waves wave the waves wave/This is how my heart behaves/A cold heart will burst/If mistrusted first/And a calm heart will break/When given a shake/The cold heart will burst/If mistrusted first/And a calm heart will break/When given a shake
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"Stop it," she said. "Stop being like that."
His smile widened. "Like what?"
"If you're angry, just say it. Don't act like nothing ever touches you. It's like you never feel anything at all."
"My hand won't hold you down no more/The path is clear to follow through/I stood too long in the way of the door/And now I'm giving up on you/No, not "baby" anymore- if I need you/I'll just use your simple name/Only kisses on the cheek from now on/And in a little while, we'll only have to wave"
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He raised his eyes to look at her and she was suddenly and strangely reminded of being four years old at the beach, crying when the wind came up and blew away the castle she had made. Her mother had told her she could make another one if she liked, but it hadn't stopped her crying because what she had thought was permanent was not permanent after all, but only made out of sand that vanished at the touch of wind or water. "What you said was true. We don't live or love in a vacuum. There are people around us who care about us who would be hurt, maybe destroyed, if we let ourselves feel what we might want to feel. To be that selfish, it would mean—it would mean being like Valentine."
He spoke his father's name with such finality that Clary felt it like a door slamming in her face.
"I'll just be your brother from now on," he said, looking at her with a hopeful expectation that she would be pleased, which made her want to scream that he was smashing her heart into pieces and he had to stop. "That's what you wanted, isn't it?"
City of Ashes: Epilogue
- Music:Maple Tree-Angel Taylor
major spoiler alert.
Your hold on Me, I Cannot Resist
A Mortal Instruments' City of Glass ; jace and clary fanmix
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Your hold on me, I cannot resist
A jace and clary fanmix
Falling in Love-Falling Up
“Sometimes I close my eyes/Sometimes I let my hunger rise/I think of all you are, you are the love of my life”
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“I don’t want anyone but you, either.”
She was rewarded by the catch in his breathing. Slowly he drew himself up onto his elbows. Now he was looking down at her, and his expression had changed—there was a look on his face she’d never seen before, a sleepy, almost deadly light in his eyes. He let his fingers trail down her cheek to her lips, outlining the shape of her mouth with the tip of a finger. “You should probably,” he said, “tell me not to do this.”
She said nothing. She didn’t want to tell him to stop. She was tired of saying no to Jace—of never letting herself feel what her whole heart wanted her to feel. Whatever the cost.
He bent down, his lips against her cheek, brushing it lightly—and still that light touch sent shivers through her nerves, shivers that made her whole body tremble. “If you want me to stop, tell me now,” he whispered. When she still said nothing, he brushed his mouth against the hollow of her temple. “Or now.” He traced the line of her cheekbone. “Or now.” His lips were against hers. “Or—”
But she had reached up and pulled him down to her, and the rest of his words were lost against her mouth. He kissed her gently, carefully, but it wasn’t gentleness she wanted, not now, not after all this time, and she knotted her fists in his shirt, pulling him harder against her. He groaned softly, low in his throat, and then his arms circled her, gathering her against him, and they rolled over on the grass, tangled together, still kissing. There were rocks digging into Clary’s back, and her shoulder ached where she’d fallen from the window, but she didn’t care. All that existed was Jace; all she felt, hoped, breathed, wanted, and saw was Jace. Nothing else mattered.
City of Glass, chapter 9; The Guilty Blood
And then You-Greg Laswell
"How my dreams they spin me 'round/And how my dreams they let me down/And how my thoughts they spin me 'round/And how my thoughts they let me down/And then there's you/Then there's you"
scene:
“I used to think being a good warrior meant not caring,” Jace said. “About anything, myself especially. I took every risk I could. I flung myself in the path of demons. I think I gave Alec a complex about what kind of fighter he was, just because he wanted to live.” He smiled, unevenly. “And then I met you.”
City of Glass, Epilogue; Across the Sky in Stars
Alibis-Mariana Trench
“This is not the man i hoped to be and I'm just trying to stop the bleeding/I don't know how to word it, i just started to deserve it and all my, all my faces are alibis/and me, i'm half the man i wanted to be”
Scene:
The moment the door shut behind Clary, Jace slumped back against the wall, as if his legs had been cut out from under him. He looked gray with a mixture of horror, shock, and what looked almost like…relief, as if a catastrophe had been narrowly avoided.
“Jace,” Alec said, taking a step toward his friend. “Do you really think—”
Jace spoke in a low voice, cutting Alec off. “Get out,” he said. “Just get out, both of you.”
“So you can do what?” Isabelle demanded. “Wreck your life some more? What the hell was that about?”
Jace shook his head. “I sent her home. It was the best thing for her.”
“You did a hell of a lot more than send her home. You destroyed her. Did you see her face?”
“It was worth it,” said Jace. “You wouldn’t understand.”
“For her, maybe,” Isabelle said. “I hope it winds up worth it for you.”
Jace turned his face away. “Just…leave me alone, Isabelle. Please.”
Isabelle cast a startled look toward her brother. Jace never said please. Alec put a hand on her shoulder. “Never mind, Jace,” he said, as kindly as he could. “I’m sure she’ll be fine.”
Jace raised his head and looked at Alec without actually looking at him—he seemed to be staring off at nothing. “No, she won’t,” he said.
City of Glass, chapter 6; Bad Blood
Day Old Hate-City of Color
“Let’s face it, this was never what you want it/ And I know it’s fun to pretend/ And now blank stares and empty threats are all I have/ They’re all I have”
Scene;
At the table sat Jace. He was leaning forward on his elbows, his golden hair tousled, his shirt slightly open at the neck. She could see the thick banding of black Marks tracing his collarbone. He held a cookie in his bandaged hand. So Sebastian was right; he had hurt himself. Not that she cared. “Good,” he said, “you’re back. I was beginning to think you’d fallen into a canal.”
Clary just stared at him, wordless. She wondered if he could read the anger in her eyes. He leaned back in the chair, throwing one arm casually over the back of it. If it hadn’t been for the rapid pulse at the base of his throat, she might almost have believed his air of unconcern.
City of Glass, chapter 8; One of the Living
Never be the Same- Red
" I'm caught inside the memories, the promises, our yesterdays, and I belong to you/I just can't walk away/cause after loving you I can never be the same”
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“I don’t want anyone but you. I don’t even want to want anyone but you.”
City of Glass, chapter 9; The Guilty Blood
Go Away-Eisley
"So go away, go away/And leave me on my own/Go away, go away
And leave me on my own/I am holding you (I am holding you)/I am holding you (I am holding you)"
Scene;
But Jace didn’t seem to see him; he was looking at Clary, and his eyes were hard as glass. Finally he spoke. “You’re right,” he said in a choked voice, as if he had to force out the words. “You should never have come. I know I told you it’s because it isn’t safe for you here, but that wasn’t true. The truth is that I don’t want you here because you’re rash and thoughtless and you’ll mess everything up. It’s just how you are. You’re not careful, Clary.”
“Mess…everything…up?” Clary couldn’t get enough air into her lungs for anything but a whisper.
“Oh, Jace,” Isabelle said sadly, as if he were the one who was hurt. He didn’t look at her. His gaze was fixed on Clary.
“You always just race ahead without thinking,” he said. “You know that, Clary. We’d never have ended up in the Dumort if it wasn’t for you.”
“And Simon would be dead! Doesn’t that count for anything? Maybe it was rash, but—”
His voice rose. “Maybe?”
“But it’s not like every decision I’ve made was a bad one! You said, after what I did on the boat, you said I’d saved everyone’s life—”
All the remaining color in Jace’s face went. He said, with a sudden and astounding viciousness, “Shut up, Clary, SHUT UP—”
“On the boat?” Alec’s gaze danced between them, bewildered. “What about what happened on the boat? Jace—”
“I just told you that to keep you from whining!” Jace shouted, ignoring Alec, ignoring everything but Clary. She could feel the force of his sudden anger like a wave threatening to knock her off her feet. “You’re a disaster for us, Clary! You’re a mundane, you’ll always be one, you’ll never be a Shadowhunter. You don’t know how to think like we do, think about what’s best for everyone—all you ever think about is yourself! But there’s a war on now, or there will be, and I don’t have the time or the inclination to follow around after you, trying to make sure you don’t get one of us killed!”
She just stared at him. She couldn’t think of a thing to say; he’d never spoken to her like this. She’d never even imagined him speaking to her like this. However angry she’d managed to make him in the past, he’d never spoken to her as if he hated her before.
“Go home, Clary,” he said. He sounded very tired, as if the effort of telling her how he really felt had drained him. “Go home.”
City of Glass, chapter 6; Bad Blood
As Much As I Ever Could-City and Color
“Love of mine, won't you lay by my side and rest your weary eyes/ Before we're out of time give me one last kiss/For soon, such distance will stretch between our lips”
Scene:
“Come to bed,” she said softly. “It’s late.” She drew away from him and returned to the bed, crawling up onto it and drawing the covers up to her waist. Somehow, looking at him like this, she could almost imagine that things were different, that it was many years from now and they’d been together so long that they’d done this a hundred times, that every night belonged to them, and not just this one. She propped her chin on her hands and watched him as he reached to jerk the curtains shut and then unzipped his white jacket and hung it over the back of a chair. He was wearing a pale gray T-shirt underneath, and the Marks that twined his bare arms shone darkly as he unbuckled his weapons belt and laid it on the floor. He unlaced his boots and stepped out of them as he came toward the bed, and he stretched out very carefully beside Clary. Lying on his back, he turned his head to look at her. A very little light filtered into the room past the edge of the curtains, just enough for her to see the outline of his face and the bright gleam of his eyes.
“Good night, Clary,” he said.
His hands lay flat on either side of him, his arms at his sides. He seemed barely to be breathing; she wasn’t sure she was breathing herself. She slid her own hand across the bed-sheet, just far enough that their fingers touched—so lightly that she would probably hardly have been aware of it had she been touching anyone but Jace; as it was, the nerve endings in her fingertips prickled softly, as if she were holding them over a low flame. She felt him tense beside her and then relax. He had shut his eyes, and his lashes cast fine shadows against the curve of his cheekbones. His mouth curled into a smile as if he sensed her watching him, and she wondered how he would look in the morning, with his hair messed and sleep circles under his eyes. Despite everything, the thought gave her a jolt of happiness.
She laced her fingers through his. “Good night,” she whispered. With their hands clasped like children in a fairy tale, she fell asleep beside him in the dark.
City of Glass chapter 14; In the Dark Forest
A Quiet Mind-Blue October
“I’m in pain but I won’t let you bandage my wound”
Scene:
Jace knew he was being cruel, and he barely cared. Hurting people he loved was almost as good as hurting himself when he was in this kind of mood.
City of Glass, chapter 6; Bad Blood
Maps –Falling Up
“The further I’m from you, the harder I try to exist/ Can somebody tell me how did it come to this?”
Scene:
“You know, there are some kinds of wounds you can get when you’re a Shadowhunter—internal injuries from demon poison. You don’t even know what’s wrong with you, but you’re bleeding to death slowly inside. That’s what it’s like, just being your brother.”
City of Glass, chapter 9; The Guilty Blood
The King of Hearts-Alex Cornish
Not Allowed-Copeland
“Here we go, I'll make a joke for you now, make you smile but I'm not allowed to be sad”
Scene;
“You came away from that thinking I was just fine?” Jace choked on something almost like a laugh. “I must be a better actor than I thought.”
City of Glass, chapter 8; One of the Living
Lightning Strikes-Angel Taylor
“Even when you smile the lightning lasts for seven miles/ And when you make me laugh I know this lighning will last”
Scene;
Clary, since the first time I saw you, I have belonged to you completely. I still do. If you want me.”
For a split second longer she stood motionless. Then, somehow, she had caught at the front of his shirt and pulled him toward her. His arms went around her, lifting her almost out of her sandals, and then he was kissing her—or she was kissing him, she wasn’t sure, and it didn’t matter. The feel of his mouth on hers was electric; her hands gripped his arms, pulling him hard against her. The feel of his heart pounding through his shirt made her dizzy with joy. No one else’s heart beat like Jace’s did, or ever could.
He let her go at last and she gasped—she’d forgotten to breathe. He cupped her face between his hands, tracing the curve of her cheekbones with his fingers. The light was back in his eyes, as bright as it had been by the lake, but now there was a wicked sparkle to it. “There,” he said. “That wasn’t so bad, was it, even though it wasn’t forbidden?”
“I’ve had worse,” she said, with a shaky laugh.
“You know,” he said, bending to brush his mouth across hers, “if it’s the lack of forbidden you’re worried about, you could still forbid me to do things.”
“What kinds of things?”
She felt him smile against her mouth. “Things like this.”
City of Glass, Epilogue; Across the Sea in Stars
- Mood:
bouncy - Music:Falling in Love-Falling Up
DRIVE THIS OCEAN ROAD
A Twilight FanMix
- Hold Nothing Back by Copeland
- Easier to be by Lifehouse
- Come to Me by Megan McCauley
- Slow Me Down by Emily Rossum
- Is You by Shannon Noll
- Congratulations (My Heart) by Blue October feat. Imogen Heap
- Everlasting Friend by Blue October
- So Long, So Long by Dashboard Confessional
- When I'm With You by Faber Drive
- Breathe Easy by Sugababes
- Next to You by Tim Easton
- Lucky by Jason Mrax feat Colbie Caillat
- Brighter than Sunshine by Aqualung
